sad club

this is gonna be the longest day ever

and i really dont mind being at work

but im depressed as fuck

and its draining the little i had

musings

i just read something

"be with someone who is constantly inspiring you"

my muse was my best friend. i forsaked him for this...this that i am with currently.

and i wonder why i cant make art anymore

kms

i killed so many spiders this week

why arent i dead then

karma is fake

i CANT AFFORD MENTAL HEALTH CARE

fukkk

it really really really pisses me off that this app crashes when i try to title a post

now i have to retroactively do it if i even want to anymore

this was supposed to be my safe place

dont i deal with enough already

hbd

im going to therapy for the first time on my 22nd birthday. 

happy birthday to me.

i have no friends

tbh my life is so so so sad. 

Turn Around

Guess who didn't work out today...LOL. I will stretch in a bit though, I will before I start painting and I reaaaally want to start painting tonight.

Found this dope website with free courses for R programming, definitely want to start that within the next couple of weeks. Also saw it has Python classes - will do those after R for sure.

Going to Barnes and Noble tomorrow for a GRE book, gotta find out the difference between Princeton Review and Kaplan (don't get the Barron's).

Definitely gotta work on my sewing project tomorrow - I totally forgot about it but I can so do it while watching TV.

I feel like I am putting a lot on my plate but it's all literally for over the rest of the year. I'm stoked to be starting this new chapter of my life. It'll truly be a revival of myself - the self I want to be and lost some years ago.