I think things are looking up. After this weekend, which should be good for me, it's a 180. We're gonna finish studying, finish cranking out MAD good art, use up all that watercolor paper and canvas.
Gonna finish studying for the MCATs and then buy another book.
I keep telling myself these things and it's as if I look back on it sometimes and get down because I'm not making progress but I need to practice what I preach: we tend to forget that baby steps still move us forward.
I saw this thing today I wanna remember it: "In Your Twenties- Your 20's are your 'selfish' years. It's a decade to immerse yourself in every single thing possible. Be selfish with your time, and all the aspects of you. Tinker with shit, travel, explore, love a lot, love a little, and never touch the ground" -Kyoko Escamilla.
After a lot of soul searching, having loved and lost, a lot of lazy "me" time doing absolutely nothing, I've decided I will not waste another year of my 20's, or even my life anymore, and I'll chase the sun.
This weekend is going to be a start to a cleanse, a good beginning and a start on the right foot with my love. I'll learn to breathe again, take it easy, smell roses, and calm the fuck down about things.
Not tryna cut years off of my life because of anxiety and depression. Gotta meditate and let that shit go.
My goal is to get AlexByDay back, and I can only do that by achieving all my other goals first to pursue happiness.
(side note- have I used this title before on something?)
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