On How to Revive Something Long Dead

I'm proud of myself. It's taken a lot but I'm slowly studying. I'm only one day behind schedule but hopefully tomorrow can make up for that. I want to start painting again, I really don't know what's holding me back...honestly it might be just a lack of sleep.

Baby steps have been working, time to turn those into strides.

I feel revitalized, I feel the old me surging through my vessels, about to take over much, much stronger than before, of course all in due time. Perfection does not come quickly, and certainly not when you want it. 

I'm struggling with the fact that I don't know how to bring back AlexByDay. I've branded myself as -you know what- (trying to avoid search engines from finding this blog), and Alvitam has been my personal collection of misery and broken pieces that should've been picked up a long time ago. I definitely do not want to carry the negativity that lurks here to AlexByDay, because it was not about that, but I don't know how to transition. I definitely wouldn't let go of this either because I'll always need the animosity of my personal hell-hole sanctuary.

I must realize that when the time comes, I will know and I will be ready. All in due time.

(note to self, any mention of AlexByDay will have to be deleted from this blog to avoid search engines if it is ever revived$