You're Gonna Look Back at This and Be So Disappointed in Yourself

Don't sing or make stupid noises or make dumb faces anymore. Don't do it.

Don't be unappreciative. He does everything for you. He goes out of his way, even though his schedule is so packed and busy, to talk to you all the time and see you and hear you and support you. You support him too, just not as much as he does for you.

Don't be entitled. Your parents gave you everything and a silver spoon. He is spoiled too, apparently, even though your life is lightyears better than his, you're both entitled but he's appreciative at least, you're not. You're a child, you act like a child, you probably won't change. You need to change.

You can't change him, accept him or leave him, but you need to change.

Always have a good topic or conversation or there's no point in conversing. Like what's the point of talking if there's nothing to say, you're 200 miles away at this point, make it count or forget about it, right?

Elaborate on your texts. Make sure you say EXACTLY how you feel down to a tee, maybe you should expand your vocabulary. If you don't, you're a liar. Don't ever lie.

Don't EVER talk about your mental illnesses again. They don't matter, they're not an excuse. Matter of fact, nothing is an excuse. Don't bring it up, you're not special, you're not the only one battling something. Who do you even think you are? Your anxiety and depression do not matter.

Don't make everything a big deal. Why do you continue to text anyways? You know you shouldn't and you don't want to get into conflict.

Stand up for yourself, but be careful, tread carefully. You'll get ripped apart, mostly because you deserve it for being so fucking stupid all the time. You're dense and stupid. He's not perfect, don't put him on a pedestal, but he's better than you and you don't deserve him. You never deserved him and you should be lucky that you even have him.

He's the greatest thing you happen to you, matter of fact. If you lose him you'll never find a better guy. All of your past relationships were shit. You are inherently shit, you attract shit.




You know what the fucking worst part of this is? You actually are a fucking idiot. Do you really think you'll end up with him forever? Do you want to be miserable like this forever?

You really are a pathetic pity party. You really are no better than his pathetic friend, no better than the girls you hate on, no better than the town you grew up in. You're literally a fucking sad sack, you love to wallow in self-hate. You're not worth shit because you have no self-confidence.

I don't know what the fuck happened to you. You don't know what the fuck you want anymore. Figure it the fuck out you stupid piece of shit. Everything he says is right because you make it right. You are inferior to him because you let yourself be inferior.

Grow a fucking spine you useless waste of space. I fucking hate you. I hate the person you've become, you're literally trash, literally a waste.

I fucking hate you. Kill yourself now.